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Aug. 25th, 2005 | 09:26 am
mood:
frustrated
music: Breaking Benjamin - Breakdown
What do I want? I want time. I want money. I want to write. I want to make money writing so that I never have to lament the time spent at a job that takes time away from writing. I can’t write. I have nothing to say. Why is it that when I have something to say, it’s never enough to be a book? I can’t figure out how to get the plot to be good, the action to sizzle. How will I ever become a writer if I don’t have anything to say? What’s the knockout ending? Where’s the conflict? Who are the characters that step off the page and turn into real people? I don’t have any of those things. Needless to say, my writing sucks. Everything I want to do has been done. To death. I can’t figure out how to approach them in a new way. I read books that are mediocre at best and wonder why I can’t manage to put words on a page when I know I am a much better writer than the authors of those books. What do they have that I don’t? Is it because I don’t have the quiet space I need to write? Is it because I can’t get away from the people constantly demanding my attention? Is it because I just don’t have the self-discipline to sit and write, despite all distractions? Or is it just that I’m fooling myself into thinking I have talent?